I have been seriously listening to Angel by Sarah McLachlan non-stop for the past couple of days. I found a lyric I love. "There's always some reason to feel not good enough And it's always hard at the end of the day I need some distraction Oh beautiful release Memory seeps from my veins Let me be empty And weightless and maybe I'll find some peace tonight" Such a sad set of lyrics for me. No different from anything really. "Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming" Yeah...like that'll happen. Kayet told me to talk to Mike about what's going on. For some reason...I can't. I really can't. I wish I could. It just seems like I'm spiraling back downward into who I used to be. At least I have something that I didn't have then. I have Mike. I guess he's my only confort. This song just...gah...the chorus makes me think of Mike. The verses make me think of everything that's wrong right now. I can't fix everything and it's driving me crazy. I'm bending, but not breaking. I'm just...I'm so tired. I guess that's it. I'm tired. Of what? I do not know, but one day it'll all end and I'll find what I've been seeking all along.