["I won't stop until I breathe no more."] Chapter 8: Origins of WHORE and SLUT "It will never end." It will end. You just have to let it. Kari, I know that it may hurt, but the past can be forgotten." "I've tried that. I wouldn't hurt this much if I didn't," Kari said. Evan looked at SLUT and WHORE cut into her leg. "Why are these here?" "Those are linked to Jason," she whispered. "Jason?! What did he do?" "It's not what did he do. It is what did I let him do." "Kari, what happened? What happened between you and Jason?" Kari paused. She closed her eyes. She could see dark. She could feel him on her. She could hear his breath. "I let him touch me," she said. "I let him get on top of me. I let him place his hand up my shirt. I let him touch me. I let him put his hand down my pants. I let him kiss me. And how I wish I didn't, because I knew that I could never have him. I learned what he was when he moved to touch my sister. I know what he is. And I let him touch me. I let him taste me. I tasted him, yet I refused to sleep with him." "I'm glad that you didn't." "I should have. It wouldn't make any less of a slut. I'm still a dirty whore." "Kari, you didn't sleep with him. You didn't let him have sex with you. You stopped it." "I didn't stop anything. I moved." Evan looked at Kari in suprise. "I probally would have slept with him if I didn't move." "No, Kari. Don't say that." "He's a poison. No matter how much you hate it. You always want more. You have to have it. He's an obsession that won't go away. He's a mistake that I will never forget." Kari looked down at her scars. Every one had a meaning. And Evan would help her to unlock each of them. --------- All of that up there is true. Jason is real. That is his name. Kari and Evan are a part of me. Kari is the memories and the pain. Evan is the future and what I want. How I wish that I could be free... Help me find my sweet suicide...Kari