I'm not drowning anymore. I'm glad that there is someone to help me rise above the waves. If only I could talk to him sooner... *sighs* Wendy said something today that bothered me. I told her that if I ever ran away, I would go to New York. She told me to be careful about Skye. Skye, you know that I love you and that I wouldn't do anything to hurt you. Yet, I feel as if my heart is betraying you. I love Mike more than anything. You have been a better friend to me. I was hoping that we could remain that. You shouldn't have taken me back. I'm not worthy enough for a guy like you. I can't be there for you. I'm been wearing a mask so long that I don't know how to act around you. I know that I am hurting you. Please, don't let me hurt you anymore. Go find someone else who can give you what you want. This wasn't you, it was me. It has always been me. I'm not fully healed from August. I loved Tim. I loved him so much. Now, I hate him. He turned me into this monster, this shadow of a person I once was. I feel that there is only one person to save me and I love him more than anything. I'm so sorry. Could you ever forgive a whore, a liar like me? I never meant to hurt you, but I did. I'm sorry. Kari If I smile and don't believe Soon I know I will wake from this dream Don't try to fix me I'm not broken Hello I'm the lie living so you can hide Don't cry Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping Hello I'm still here All that's left of yesterday