You know how you say something you hope someone never hears or sees but they do? Yeah...I just fucked shit up with my sister. She's always been one of the closest ppl to me and I just ruined that. What a fuck up I am. Just a stupid whore. God. Why do I do this to myself?! Why can't I just fucking die?! *sighs* On a good note...I get Mike next month. I can't wait. It's going to be the best weekend of my life. I even dreamed about it last night. He's my everything. I guess, he's the reason why I'm still alive. I mean, I lost Sky. I've just lost my sister. There's really nothing more to lose, but if I lost Mike...I'd fucking die. There wouldn't be anything to keep me from putting that gun to my head. Kari Small simple safe price Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets This is not a small cut that scabs and dries and flake and heals And I'm not afraid to die I'm not afraid to bleed and fuck and fight I want the pain of payment What's left but a section of pygmy size cuts Much like the slue of a thousand unwanted fucks Would you be my little cut? Would you be my thousand fucks? And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid To fill and spill over and under my thoughts My sad sorry selfish cry out to the cutter I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart Love is not like anything Expecially a fucking knife!