I guess, I feel like shit tonight. If I could do anything, I would say every word that I wanted to say. I don't know how many times tonight I just wanted to tell Mike that I love him. I don't know how many times I wished that he would kiss me. I just don't fucking know why I feel like a failure. I'm not the same person he knows from here. In person, I'm shy. I hide away. It's the way I am. I just feel like I am disappointing him. I just don't want him to think that I don't love him. *sighs* And it took all my strength to make him leave. Now, I regret it. I regret it so fucking much. *eyes water* Mike...when you read this...I'm sorry. Kayla It don’t do me any good It’s just a waste of time What use is it to you What’s on my mind If ain’t coming out We’re not going anywhere So why can’t I just tell you that I care