*sighs* Say goodnight Don't be afraid Calling me calling me as you fade to black *sighs again* That is how I feel. I'm fading. I've lost touch with all of my friends here in Indy and the only ppl I have in Logan hate me. Why must they hate me when I hate myself more. I want to die. I guess back to the suicidal fuck up, Hikari, I go. She's me. She's the me I don't want to be. GODDAMN IT! I FUCKING HATE HER! WHY CAN'T THIS ALL END?! I've woken up to find myself In the shadow of a lie I've created I'm longing to be lost in you Take me away from the place I am made Just take me away from me *sighs* Someone save me. Please...I don't wanna die anymore. I don't wanna drown. Help me...save me... It's easier to run Replacing this pain with something numb It's so much easier to go Then face all this pain here all alone Something has been take From deep inside me A secret I've kept locked away No one can ever see Wounds so deep they never show They never go away Like moving pictures in my head For years and years they've played If I could change I would Take back the pain I would Retrace every wrong move that I made I would If I could Stand up and take the blame I would If I could take all the shame to the grave I would It's easier to run Replacing this pain with something numb It's so much easier to go Then face all this pain here all alone Sometimes I remember The darkness of my past Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have Sometimes I think of letting go And never looking back And never moving forward so There would never be a past If I could change I would Take back the pain I would Retrace every wrong move that I made I would If I could Stand up and take the blame I would If I could take all the shame to the grave I would Just washing it aside All of the helplessness inside Pretending I don't feel misplaced Is so much simpler than change It's easier to run Replacing this pain with something numb It's so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone *sighs* To school I go. Wish I could cut more there. Back to the old ways, Hikari...back to the old ways. Fall back into darkness, Guardian of Light. Back to where you belong. Kari Can't you see Can't you see I'm not me I can't let go your softness haunts me Without your touch I wrinkle like a flower burned If there's a god I promise him anything he asks of me So I could hold you in my arms forever Healing, a broken soul, this lie that I'm forced to live in Taken, now that you've been ripped from me oh Healing, a broken soul, this lie that I'm forced to live in Taken, now that you've been ripped from me