I finally found a song for Shadow. I can't believe how true it is. I'll post it here... Everytime we lie awake After every hit we take Every feeling that I get But I still don't miss you yet Every roommate kept awake By every silent scream we make All the feelings that I get But I still don't miss you yet Only when I stop to think about it I hate everything all about you Why do I love you? I hate everything all about you Why do I love you? Everytime we lie awake After every hit we take Every feeling that I get But I haven't missed you yet Only when I stop to think about it I hate everything all about you Why do I love you? I hate everything about you Why do I love you? Only when I stip to think about you I know Only when you stop to think about me Do you know? I hate everything all about you Why do I love you? You hate everything about me Why do you love me? I hate You hate I hate You love me I hate everything about you Why do I love you? Isn't it so true? God I wish it wasn't. Some part of me wants to just die because of him. The other part knows that I have a great life with Mike to look forward to. It's just so hard because I still feel Shadow in me. He's still there, haunting me and I can't get rid of that. Then, there's Sky. He's still there. I can feel his pain in me. It's almost like I'm the only reason he hates. I wish I could take it away, but I can't. He won't talk to me. He won't see me. *sighs* I guess I deserve that, but I will not be broken down. I may be the cause of his pain, but it is for the removal of mine. Mike is my world. Without him, I wouldn't be here right now. I love him too damn much. I love him. Kari Get away from Me Gimme my space back/you gotta just Go Everything comes down to memories of You I've kept it in but now I'm letting you Know I've let you go So GET AWAY FROM ME!