Don't know what to do. Is hiding away the best thing? Is letting go what I need to do? I don't know anymore cause I can't thing clearly. I need to rest. I need a long rest and maybe a visit with a doctor. There is something wrong with me. I should tell an adult that I am like this. I just don't want to get yelled at. Yes, I want to die. No, I don't know why. It is always the same. Nothing changes when you are alone. You have the same sacrifices. You don't know what to do. But someday, I'll wake up. Oh well...I wish it would end. But somethings won't. Kari