And thus the painful descent into housewifelyness continues. I often find myself cleaning things that I didnt used to worry about, and vaccuming... and sweeping... and I am still not quite sure how I feel about it. But I guess its cool.
I was looking for a job, but, we talked to these people who work for the government. Their job is to get low income families into houses, because the government makes more money off of people houses than they do from people in apartments. The point being, if we are going to go through with this, I wont be able to get a job untill we get the terms settled. I actually know a few people who have gone through this business, and almost always someone has to quit their job so they can be under the limit.
So yeah... I am thinking I am gonna be a house wife for a little while longer.
There's just so much to be said
So much is running through my head
In a time staggered on the end
Maybe now can we pretend?
I'm going to a baby shower tomorrow, and a bunch of people are going to be there, some that I haven't seen or talked to in years. I'm nervous.
I've been thinking so much about getting a job and my own place lately. I'd pretty up my place. I'd put in a small telly. Try and get a laptop. Get a lovely looking living room set, dining room set, bedroom set, all the good stuff. I'd put paintings up. Pictures. Rugs on the floor. Even paint the damn place. I've been dreaming about it. And now I'm only hoping that this dream comes true. That's all I can do at the moment. I'd even get someone to live with me. And I'd have a whole budget thing planned out. I wouldn't apply for a credit card, but a debit card, so I don't have to worry about debts. I'd be in college doing my own thing. Visit the family once in a while. I'll live a simple life. I just need my own car to get things started. College, job, home, car, fun. Two more years, I guess.
I still haven't gotten my report card. I owe the school 37.50. I don't have that kind of money right now. And father isn't usually a generous person. I got my schedule though..or what is expected to be on my schedule for the year. I'm going to do everything to get good grades. Everything humanly possible that isn't too much. I need to start getting stuff for school so that when the time has actually come to get stuff for school, father doesn't have to spend too much at one time. Clothes, school supplies. I need a locker shelf too. I've never had one, but it looks like it's helpful.
i give him credit for everything he does.. last night was weird and i just have to say that i love him. end of story my superhero my caboose. i dont doubt him he's a good guy and thats why he's mine and i'm keeping him. i believe in him and everything he does
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he does an amazing job and i support him as much as i can. hopefully some day i can pay back everything i owe and then buy me a vette and then i can race him :P haha yea right. i want a white convertable one decided upon yesterday when i saw one and it was pretty hott.
make him come home so i can kiss him. god mood change i feel bubbly and giddy and cute and i just wish he were home so i could show him how cute i can be and kiss him and be excited to see him and butterflys all over my tummy god when he comes home now those are like fucking birds my tummy goes so crazy and i love it you have no idea how crazy first kiss is evertime he's back its like jolts of energy rushing through both of us who needs a firework when its like a whirlwind of fireworks on the 4th of july in dc like more than that its like the whole world lights up with works i love it mm i want my baby home.
Well, I have no idea why I decided to make a SitDiary. it's always been Christina's thing to do this, but I figured...This is the beginning of a new chapter in my life. So, why not document it. I haven't documented something in a very long while, and I'm hoping that in 20 years when I look back on this time I can recall why the hell I did it.
That's really all for my first post. I'm going to be spending time with Sam today because once I go back to my dad's it's pretty much no turning back from there. I will have one day to get everything out and hand him the letter that will most like ruin our already thin relationship.
I'll be back tonight i'm sure, my head has been going nonstop since I left and I sure would like a release.