I know that this is three in one day...but Family Portrait by Pink has made me think about my parent's devorse. God, it was so fucked up. I was 7. I remember waking up to hearing my parent's arguing. I went so see what was up, then I saw my dad hit my mom. I freaked out and went back to bed. I only recently told my mom this. My sister is too young to remember that time. It's burned into my mind. The fighting, the screaming, the tears. I hardly saw my dad during that time. It's only cause he was fucking my step-mom. He says that my mom cheated on him. She says that she never should have married him. I say that he shouldn't have ever adopted me. This life is so hard. Torn between two parents. One that doesn't trust you and the other that is fucked up mentally. I don't know how I can stand it. Maybe it is because I love my sister and Mike. I'm glad I'm still around. I wouldn't have Mike if I died. Maybe I was right. There is something in live looking forward to. *smiles* And I'm glad that I pressed on to find my reason. I love you, Mike. Kari Daddy please stop yellin, I can't stand the sound Make mama stop cryin, cuz I need you around My mama she loves you, no matter what she says its true I know that she hurts you, but remember I love you, too