I've been feeling a bit down today. I'm really tired. It's kind of the same ol' thing in the Dark Faerie's realm. I'm wearing purple today...a color I usually don't wear. It's kinda weird...OH! Here's the song of the day.. Haunted ~Evanescence Long lost words whisper slowly to me Still can't find what brings me here When all this time I've been so hollow inside ( I know you're still there ) Watching me wanting me I can feel you pull me down Fearing you loving you I won't let you pull me down Hunting you I can smell you alive Your heart pounding in my head Watching me wanting me I can feel you pull me down Saving me raping me Watching me Okay...song time over. Dat is da song of the day. I just feel so...bleh. Maybe it is cause of Hikari and stuff. I really want to cut as well. I know that's not good, but what can I do? I could have lost Mike yesterday. He got into a small car crash. He's fine...but how would I have known if he wasn't? I would have found out eventually...and I would have begged to everyoneI know to get out there to see him. If I lost him...I would die. He's the only thing in this life that really keeps me afloat everyday. He's my Fallen Angel...he's my baby. I love him so much and to lose him...would be to lose my soul, my existance. *sighs* I need to stop thinking about this. He's fine and I'm fine. I'll just sit here and drink my apple juice and listen to Haunted over and over again. But yet...everything is still in my mind...I love you, Michael...So, so much... The Dark Faerie