3:51 Mid Monday Afternoon (8 February 2009)

The air gets harder to breathe

The sun goes down at a later time , and it's light when I wake up.

and when it's light when I wake up, I actually get up on time.

The good news for last week was that I got a presidential fellowship for this semester! They don't normally have them for graduate students beginning in spring semester, because they are usually all gone to fall-start by the time spring semester grad students apply for university. Lucky for me, I guess, that they're based on the college your work is in, and the guy who got one last fall switched colleges and now I get the rest of his moneys. I didn't even realize I could get one until they were like "here you go!"

Basically I successfully tricked all those silly administrator types into thinking I am talented and full of potential. And with this award under my belt, I can use it in my future resumes to trick even more people! mwahahaha.

It also means that I make about $3000 more this year than I would normally under the graduate stipend. which means Caleb and I are a fair bit richer this year than last year. That means we'll be able to rebuild the savings accounts we depleted when we bought our house. and THAT means some day we'll be able to afford to have a baby? travel? buy another house? retire?

Anyway.

Usually I like winter.

but this one is starting to wear me down on the edges. blunting my wits more than they were already blunted. confusing me with conflicting thoughts and feelings. how can I get through everything that I need to get through?