6:05 Tuesday Evening   A few More Days soon my classes will change, just like the colours of the canyon. just like life. What will it be like when he comes for me? Will it be the same? will he kiss me in the airport? or will i have to kiss him? I miss him so much. I had a strange dream last night. I went to some guy that Katherine liked's house, but this was not home. this was not in Logan, either. This was some random city at night. I think I rode my bike and brought him a kitty. And even though he wasnt' caleb and even though I knew Katherine liked him, when he kissed me I kissed him back. And we made out leaning on his motorcycle. It was yellow. Then his cat started talking to me the next day and I freaked out and i went back to his house and I wondered if we'd make out again. I was like "but i have caleb. and what about katherine?" He was in a meeting and he came out for me and i was yelling at him about his cat and he was like "oh no! you didn't know they could talk!" i looked at him like he was crazy and i left. I was in a brothel, next. hanging out with some whores. but i don't know who they were or why i was with them. probably because i felt like a whore making out with that guy that katherine liked? and then it was morning and i had wake up to go to school. I'm so sad. I need a good cry. 40 days until he's here and i get to spend a month with him. unfortunately, that means that soon he'll leave me again. and i knew this would happen. I knew that through the excitement of him coming, i'd focus on the end. i hate myself sometimes.