2:05 Sunday Afternoon   What DOES fu fu berry taste like? To Kayru: indeed, it is the Jimwell you know. Small world. Haha. And absolutely no trace of a crush. I hardly remember it now. I miss Katherine. :3 And I miss Aaron and Taylor. And I miss Sara. And I miss my kitties. I miss Mandy. I miss church. I miss my Nova, Carpe Diem. Okay, Daddy's nova. but still. My life equals a huge miss-fest right now. I'll miss Caleb when I'm gone. I think I'll cry lots. It will be a big tear fest on the plane. Especially if he goes with me to the airport. There is a sadness settled in my heart. But on the bright side I'm going home. On the bright side, My period came. On the bright side, I still have almost 2 months. sort of. On the bright side, he's coming with us on vacation. On the bright side, he's coming to visit in December. On the BRIGHT side, My Period Came. Thank You Jesus and God! woohoo! ----------------- 9:39 p.m. I read more Dune, and Caleb came round. We talked for 2 hours. I then did homework I was supposed to have done eons ago. As in, last week. I have a reason for updating. My brain keeps touching on something Caleb said right before he left. I had said something about not looking forward to Australia trip. He said I'd fall in love with another overseas guy. I said no, only him. He said another. Another. This implies there was one before. He said fall in love. This is actually directly saying in love. I mean, read it. I said only him. This implies that I am in love with him. I wonder am I reading into this too much? Did I think about what he said before I replied? No. Did he think about what he said before he said it? Maybe. Maybe not. Falll in looove with another No, only him ----------------- 9:48 p.m. Seriously, my mind keeps replaying this moment. When I go home I think I'll have sort of another boyfriend, sort of maybe. Kind of. I think I'll probably fall for Dan again. I say again like I ever stopped liking Dan. But unlike what happened with Scott where I fell in love with Dan and started falling out of love with Scott, I have no idea what I feel towards Dan and I may actually be "in love" with Caleb. And falling harder for Caleb every day. Oh man. Stupid countries. To quote from Death Cab for Cutie... "I wish the Earth was Flat like the old days Then I could travel just by folding a map." There'd be no need for airplanes, speed trains, or freeways There'd be no distance that could hold us back." The New Year A song which Dan sent me. While I don't look forward to Australia, I look forward to Fiji. It just seems as though sitting on a beach, watching the sunset, watching the waves all by myself is paradise. I could write songs I'd never sing. I could write letters I'd never send. I could write stories I'd never read. I could write haikus in the sand. After Fiji I'm going home. I feel sick. I feel that stinging moisture in my eyes and nose again.