10:40 Late Monday Morning   Not Having Class is Disorienting So I was in my creative arts class (it's a good class but i hate that it's required to get a degree here), shockingly. i know. It was a good thing I went, though, because the three guys from NWC were there, giving us a little preview and telling us the story of how they came to put that play/dialogue together. It was really interesting. Stereotypes, minorities, white-dominated-majority, media-images, napoleon dynamite, separation and isolation... I wanted to ask them a million questions. This isn't exactly the most diverse part of the United States. In fact it's the biggest monoculture I've ever been in. Not that I've been in that many places of the world, but seriously. what are we, like 75% LDS? 90% white? I don't know. Anyway, I'm incredibly sheltered. I can't even pretend to understand the ordeals of the world. all i know is that i don't know anything. I wanted to ask them my questions like, why do they think the media matters so much? I don't watch a lot of tv. My biggest media outlet is the Internet. But even so, i think the most well-known site I frequent is Facebook. possibly Livejournal. I don't know. Myspace is against my religion. My little sister. she's into pop culture. She absolutely mystifies me. I don't understand. Are there actually girls out there who are mainly concerned with taking pictures of themselves pouting? I can't believe, i refuse to believe, that people actually watch MTV. I cannot comprehend the draw of American Idol. Do people actually like to watch it? Do they actually find "the real world" or whatever, "survivor," i don't care, reality tv in general...do people actually find that those shows are entertaining? What is the point? Is the media really...is this what people watch on TV? Admittedly I do like some TV shows. Like, I totally dig House. and I was watching Numb3rs the other day, the first 10 minutes was interesting (before i got distracted and wandered away). Do people actually read Cosmopolitan magazine, or Vogue? I mean, these are...big money-making venues. Are teenagers ACTUALLY shopping at the mall, buying clothes from stores JUST because their friends buy clothes from those stores? because they want to fit in with a certain "image"? Do they care where those clothes came from? Do they care who is exploiting their tastes and making shitloads from their impulse buys? Are there other people like my little sister out there? It freaks me out, THIS is our future?! THIS IS OUR FUCKING NEXT GENERATION? Shit. Shit shit shit. where are the revolutions, the changes in thinking, the shifts in paradigm? Where are the riots and the sit ins? Where are the intellectuals? Where are the activists? Where is...ANYONE who isn't apathetic, who isn't ok with just letting things be the way they are? Gah, if i keep going on like this...i'm not making any sense as it is. Sometimes i just want to pick everyone up and shake them. first i must start with myself.