1:51 Early Wednesday Afternoon   I Dont Know If We're Going to Make It the house, that is. I feel my hopes slipping away more and more. Is the worst part that I want to blame Caleb for not emailing the prof? Or I want to blame myself for not having a more reliable job? I've been thinking more and more about going back to Catering. Pros: schedule, money. Cons: I hate catering, Less time w/Caleb. It's been so weird, it infiltrated my subconscious. Last night I had a dream that Amy and Ang worked at Catering and we were having a meeting with Tomas. I was like "do you guys mind if I start working here?" to Amy and Ang, and Tomas was like "I do, i will not respect you if you come back because you promised you wouldn't." Then the next thing I knew, the Millers were living right next to us, the sky was orange, and they came over a hill into our yard with some elephants. i thought to myself, 'it's weird how much elephants look like Dr Miller,' and when I think about it now, the elephants didn't have trunks - they had human noses. The small elephant ran over to me, and I held my hand out for it to sniff and then it snarled (yeah, even though it was an elephant, not a dog), 'You Are A Robot!!' and chased me around trying to eat me then i woke up. what the hell? I really wanted that house. I'm going to do some work.