7:13 Monday Morning   getting letters in the mail happy anniversary to me and caleb. one year ago today I was going to finally do what i'd been hoping for and intending to do for at least a week (though i could swear it was a year). It's funny how those school girl crushes go. It's always seemed weird to me that two people could have mutual romantic feelings for each other without having romantic feelings for anyone else. Doesn't it seem random? I mean, out of 6 billion people, how could someone have feelings for another person and then that same person has feelings for this someone? it's crazy. like fate or Divine intervention. just coincidence that happens a lot? or maybe there are certain personality types that are just automatically drawn to each other? either way, i made my first daisy chain a year ago today. I wish i didn't have to go to school. If we were together I wonder what we'd do. besides make a daisy chain. ----------------- 10:04 p.m. yeah. 365 days ago. hehe I was watching Roseanne with my dad and it was this episode where this girl asks her mum to get birth control and it takes me back. aah. The way the girl's dad acted towards the girl's boyfriend. It takes me back for completely different reasons. I guess i was stressed? Or I hadn't been eating properly? yeah. we all remember how freaked out i was when i missed my period. i told my mum a few days later my dad picks me up from Caleb's house and he's all "are you sexually active?" no i am serious. he said that. blunt. exactly like that. I freaked out and said no. i mean. it's the truth. but if i was attached to a lie detector it would so totally have gone off because .... your dad asks you if you're having sex and how're you supposed to react? He's like "if you were would you tell me?" "um..." i thought about it. probably not. unless he asked. And then he goes on about how important it is to have protection and he can't make my decisions for me and how he wants grandchildren but not now and caleb's a good kid and all.. i was like "dad. Caleb and I are not having sex." FREAKY. anyway that episode of roseanne takes me back to march. ah good times. so many times we ambiguously locked ourselves in my room and had the house to ourselves but we're such good, abstinate kids. yeah. it was awesome as an april fool's joke though. But yeah, if anyone is out there reading this, hey kids! sex is gross and you'll catch cooties if you have it. Sorry guys, it's the truth. ask any person that is me. pure, unadultered (except by me) fact. Cooties will kill you. ----------------- 10:20 p.m. of all the days not to get online and talk to your girlfriend, today is so NOT THE RIGHT DAY. watch as soon as i finish complaining he signs in. it always happens like that. except now that i've acknowledged it, it's not going to happen. it's just murphey's law. i'll talk about my day because i haven't updated decently about the goings on (Besides whatever caleb does because i totally need an outlet since i don't get to tell him i love him very often) i my life. I WENT TO SCHOOL AND IT WAS WEIRD THERE WAS A FIRE ALARM AND I AM IN A FUNKY MOOD BUT IT WAS RAINING AND ME AND NIKKI JUMPED OVER PUDDLES AND I WAS TOLD I HAVE TOO MUCH ENERGY. i dig small engine repair class. is it still monday? after school i was freaking out because i didn't know if i should go to belly dancing lessons or not but in the end my mum said she saw a flier at the student centre so it probably was not in hyrum. which made me decide to go. so hey guess what, i'm in a club. I'm going to belly dance. and i'm going to be sex. walking, dancing, hip-jiggling sex. I learned 3 basic moves today and i am awesome at them, maybe. not really but they are fun and i like to admire my stomach muscles in the mirror when i dance and make them move funny. i'm so tired. i wish he would call. call, dangit... i'll just sit here and will the phone to ring.