10:36 Wednesday Night   I should Go To Bed I'm tired of school. I got angry with my daddy today. it makes me really really sad to upset him. I hate small engines. I do. I suck so hard at that class. I try so hard and I am just not doing well. I guess I am really pathetic. so i need to remember to talk to Mr. Shop Teacher about doing those assignments over. Tutoring tomorrow. Inside Out was tonight. it was...awesome. We went ten pin bowling, and i totally won. I got a 43! and he/she with the lowest score wins, right? ;) Lauri, Molly, and I had a great talk about future Inside Outs, and i invited everyone to my belly dancing thing. Then I drove Molly home and we had a grand talk about lots of stuff. it was nice. talking is good. especially since i've felt so distanced from everyone lately. and i feel like poop. i feel like nothing I do matters, nothing I do is good enough. It doesn't matter if I had amazing grades in the hardest classes at school if I have imperfect scores in one class. I feel like the only time i'm ever appreciated is after Dad talks to uncle Ron on the phone and even then...i know it's limited and the feeling won't last long. It's like...why bother? I hate feeling angry with my daddy because he's so important to me. :( Stick shift news: i can reverse it now!huzzah! My transitions are on their way to getting smoother, as well. yay. I'm listening to Hot Hot Heat, but i only really really like one of their songs... it makes me feel kind of sad and nostalgic, though i don't associate it with any memory...i associate it with memories i wish i had.