1:05 Monday Afternoon   Currency Change there are a lot of knots this time around, a lot more questioning..."is it worth it? are we really meant to be?" but just the thought of spending my life without him makes me cry harder... so we work hard on loosening the evil knots, so we can untie them and have a fresh string to go on. I can't do it by myself, neither can he. We're a team. All the stresses add up during the week and by friday, i'm going crazy. it's like that, the weekly schedule. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday...fantastic. stressful but mild, i'm mellow, i'm okay. By Thursday, tensions are building up to unhealthy levels and on Friday night, i'm a sobbing mess. it's the same every week. Saturday and Sunday are spent working out all the snags and knots that are bunching up in my mind and heart, and then things are back to schedule. i hate living here, i'm so unhappy. And just for the record? I was unhappy before I left, too. earthquakes that we can feel are becoming ever so more frequent.