3:05 Tuesday Afternoon   broken and frustrated someone shoot me in the face please. i hate it but i hate her. i hate feeling actually violent; actually WANTING to punch her out because she's being so bitchy; screaming at me for no reason, she needs to grow down. she is not 17, she is 12. I hate this stupid country and its stupid society based on looking vogue and cool and having stupid expensive clothes. every week i'm here i feel dumber for it. disturbing realisations grip my being. i wish that i could be the happiest girl ever for more than a month. stupid stupid stupid i'm pathetic times 2 million.