7:52 Monday Morning   Flakes of My Mind must have been coming off, I had a headache waking up this morning, like a hangover (maybe, i wouldn't really know). Oh well, off to school I go, in five minutes. There was a cute white kitty with grey stripes who came to my door and meowed at me, I opened the door to pet it but it ran away. Quel Dommage. Caleb came with me and my family hiking and to the beach. That poor boy. I had fun, though. It was nice hiking with someone who wasn't my family. And my parents like him a lot, so that's an added bonus. They're like "well Caleb can come such and such with us," it's actually really weird. Good though, better to have a boyfriend they approve of than a boyfriend they don't. The other highlight of my day was going to The Warehouse, braving the lingerie department and picking out a bra to try on. AND IT FIT. AND IT WAS B CUP. I'm so proud. lookee there. I can grow mammary glands too. YAY! Too bad my head hurts... It's daisy chain day! ----------------- 7:48 p.m. Saying we have something special is just as close to an "I love you" as I think we'll get. I dreamt, last night, that you told me you loved me and I was elated. and very, very sad. I also dreamt, last night, that I was on a swim team with some of the guys from school. I was in Simon's lane, looking at him, and he kissed me, just totally randomly. And I was horrified. I ran to Caleb and told him and begged him to forgive me. Then I woke up. we might have something special Walking down a quiet road, wrought with spring, hand in hand, laughing at ourselves in a questioning way. Unspoken words, Do you feel as much for me as I do for you? love. Long discussions on love and marriage, but not ours. relationships. Long discussions on our relationship and what we like most about it. I like that we talk, it's the best part. Almost as good was taking a nap and seeing you first thing after I opened my eyes upon awakening. probably and what we want are sadly very different things. He'll move on. I might, as well. It's an interesting thing that takes up most of everyone's lives. Most people spend the most energy trying to find it. Most people spend the most of their free time dedicated to it. They spend most of their thoughts, when they drift into fantasy, not on money or fame or power, but love. Am I right? Or am I only hoping to be?