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Feeling: undecided

So it all started when he came over to my house last Sun to watch the First Pres Devotional.

He came in and start down and started mysteriously texting someone, mysteriously cuz he was making it obvious he didn't want me to see who/what he was texting. Oh bother. He's already chattin up other girls probably the ones he met online. Greeeaatt.

So it only took a simple guess and a question, "Who ya texting?"

Of course at first he says "no one" and then it only takes seconds and he goes all out giving me every detail and asking advice and telling me word for word what he texted girls. Maybe I should have thought twice before I asked him. I thought he wouldn't want to tell me after being so secretive, or maybe he'd tell me just in spite and see if he could get me jealous or something mean and manipulative like that.

So now everytime we try and ask each other what we did for the weekend or whatever it turns into him launching into another girl fiasco he's having and he tells me all about it in detail. Sighs. I really can't tell if this is a good thing or bad. I mean its really none of my business anymore. But I do want him to choose wisely and I would be interested to know if he didn't choose wisely and ended up screwing himself over, I wouldn't mind that info... but....

and I am curious to see who ends up with him next. I'm going to guess a 5'2-5'4 burnette, just like me and his other ex and prolly closer to my age than his. He's so predictable. He's already playing Monopoly Deal with this one girl. Pff. His like first or second date idea. He scared the other girl away tho that was my age. haha

The other question is he has been telling me all his situations with girls, so if it ever happens, am I supposed to tell him about my boy issues? This isn't like the golden rule thing is it? He really doesn't want to know right? He juss wants to talk about his issues right? If anything to try and hurt me? So he doesn't want that behavior in return right? Whatever.

Anyways, if I juss met him for the first time and he texted those things he did to that other girl, I would be creeped out. And then I realize.... he did text me like that when we first started and I still went out with him. I have to admit I went with a "this is a pity date" attitude cuz he was kinda creepy in text. But then I learned he had no humor at all so it wasn't so creepy, juss weird. But I did have a lot more creepy texts than his before so... maybe at that point he wasn't so bad.

But just listening to his usual and only moves and lines he has and seeing how ridiculous and creepy they sounded I almost felt there was no hope for this guy. And then I felt sorry for myself because I did date that guy. But he also remembered how I communicated when we first were dating and made fun of it and wanted someone more 'normal' also. Now he jokes about having two ex wives, but at least he only has to pay one ex child support tho. haha. Its interesting how we can joke about this now...so soon.

Well the past few months I had things to occupy my time. I'll admit it got tiring and I started to dislike it. But it did give me time away from the boy and gave the boy time to get out of depression and start chattin up some girls. And now my busy-ness has gone down to almost literally nothing, he has started chatting with girls just in time to not come back to me. Last week was my last week of busy-ness. This week is going to be...different. I'm sure how this is going to go. I suppose its my turn for depression and letting it sink in that we are over and whatnot.

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