I hate it when I know things WAY in advanced. Then I stress about it FOREVER and I can't do anything about to get rid of that stress until that time comes which in some cases are months. Grrrrr..... Meanwhile back at the ranch I'm suffering and slowly slipping into madness b/c I'm stressing out and catrasophying over stupid things until I can deal/get rid of them. It's like carrying a burden around on your shoulders. Don't tell me things in advance. But I hate surprises also. Leave me alone. I'd rather have my insides slowly breakdown instead of me outside breaking down. I'd rather have all the stress in my head and stomach than come out through depression. I hate it! *twitch twitch* What happened to my good days streak? I want Wesa....I want someone....to juss smile and nod and say 'uh-huh'. Just pretend to understand. I wish it wouldn't effect my family this much. Die evil monkey of doom. If anyone asks I'm not depressed. Really, I'm not. I juss don't feel good. I get a headache like the same time everyday and I think I'm coming down with a cold which is wiggin' out my throat and nose. I'm juss sick and tired. I like to sleep alot when I'm sick. Oh, juss leave me alone.