this is me, letting go My one chance to get the hell out of here. And it's gone. This is the age where you're supposed to have fun. Do things with your life you can't later in life... I need adventure. I only ask for one frickin' vacation. ONE. For a week. Out of this state. And not across the border to Idaho. I'm...just ...tired! The same damn city The same damn thing everyday Visiting the same damn valley Doing the same damn things there too I want out... I'm losing my mind... I just...want out... "This is a sick cycle, yeah Sick cycle carousel This is a sick cycle, yeah When will this end? It goes on and on Over and over and then over again Keeps spinning around I know that it won't stop 'Til I stand down from this for good" _____________________________________________________ 5:39p.m. I needed a time out Gave myself a few hours at work to calm down.. I am calm.... Breathing slowly... I only have three more pages in my other journal... *heart accelerating*