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Feeling: impatient
Today...is not my day... I seem to please one person... And piss off another.... Besides that I'm extremely emotional and I swear something is wrong with me. This hormone thing with no period is driving me insane. It's like this feeling-unsatisfied-disease that can never be satisfied. Something always just feels...wrong, a little off. I skipped my last class to come to lunch with Hyde and Ralph - I was so excited. And they cancelled and didn't tell me. So I skipped class for...nothing. Grr. Angry. So I went to get Jamba Juice and grease and it took longer than expected. But I didn't care. Then I timed doing cake with Hyde and Ralph but Ralph up and has a meeting to go...which left me and Hyde. So I decided to invite Steve down the hall (the only other one in the suite)... bad mistake. I knocked on his door and he yells "Just a minute" and then comes to the door fuming. "Busy, really busy, what do you want? What what what?!" REEEEER. *hisses* I said nothing and walked away. I was juss gonna invite him to do cake with us. I didn't do anything. Well, that jackA ruined my day. So I went back to Hyde at the table and he opened my present and laughed. He definitely...is a fatherly figure. He treated me just like his daughter. It was fun being with him. I hope he has a good birthday cuz he's gonna live long. :D So I pleased Hyde and pissed off Steve. I know if I please one more person, someone else is gonna be pissed off. Sigh. I give up. But I don't have to talk to mean Steve ever again. I hope he doesn't come back out and give the whole "i'm sorry i'm really a good guy" speech. That is so typical for abusive folks. Say it how it is, "I'm a jackA and I know it so leave me alone". And I'm such a passive sucker that I'll fall for it and say "its okay" when it's not. Going to Sam's Club to get giant packs of laffy taffy for me and Braxton. :D Spending money always makes me feel better. So would flipping Steve off. And angry hate music will too. Yay the boss is gonna be gone morrow! Sad. I'm so easily conquered at this point in life.
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I love you. Have you looked into birth control pills? Because they have made my 'periods' much more regular and easy to deal with. I'd suggest going to planned parenthood and talking to them about options for menstrual regulation.