its like 4 am. tim is in bed and I am on sitd. how lame am i? but Im not tired. its weird because all day I felt sick like i had the flu or something. boo.
my mom keeps calling me. It makes me sad sometimes to think that I am not a part of my own family. But I think it actually makes me more upset to think of being a part of a family that doesn't give a crap about me.
i have nothing interesting to say right now I'm just bored out of my banana stand.. heh.
oh. i did see one interesting thing today. well.. not interesting just funny. i went to jasons myspace. i do that from time to time. not just his.. just everyone i can think of in a span of like 2 minutes or however long I'm bored.. aaaaaaaaand i was just looking around . wasnt much to look at but i noticed his status thingy still says single.. and its funny because what does it even mean? for most people it would just mean single but i mean.. for him.. yeah, it could mean single but it could also mean he's out having sex and telling girls he's "falling in love with them" with no intentions of ever going thru with anything that could actually lead to a real relationship. like having a conversation that doesnt involve a bunch of lame jokes i've heard a million times or changing the subject when you get serious. so yeah, it will remain "single". i wonder what it would actually take to change that status. he'd probably have to actually be engaged or married or have a kid idk. is that how he thinks it works? sex for years as "just friends" (or his poetic words "whatever you want to call it" lol.) and then you out of the blue pop the question.. if that would ever happen. poor girl he chooses is going to have a nice life of 3 unplanned kids and nothing but a boyfriend to show for it. if that. ifff that. kids.
meh. i get random bursts of anger when i think of him.
speaking of kids :/ i wanna baby. no no no. not yet. not for a few years :{ the longer i am not a part of my own family, the more i want to create my own.. and timmy was so cute as a baby... and i was pretty adorable.. we'd make cute kids.. creepy teens but cute babies.
tomorrow we're going to confront pam our loan person about our loan. she told us the place we want isnt fha approved. but we spoke to another person.. who is actually the president of a lending company.. and he said it is approved. timmy also looked online and it said it was approved. so either pam knows something we all dont know.. or she lied to get more money. I'm going with the second one. first of all she isnt the president of a lending company.. she is a broker or something. and she's basically the middle man between us and the bank that loans us the money. so they put in their own little fees.. thats how they make money. with fha loans.. its cheaper so she wouldnt make nearly as much. so i just think she thought she could pull the wool over our eyes.. like we're these first time buyer idiots and we'll just listen to her because she knows everything. i really dont think she ever thought we'd find out she was lying.well. if she was.. but she was. i'd be really surprised if she wasnt. we'll find out tomorrow. michelle our relator is going to call our new loan guy to make sure he is 100% certain the place is fha approved. and then she'll call us and then we're going to call pam. We're all really curious to hear her response.
no more rob and big :{
its overrr.
but.
hills tomorrow. woot :}
strawberries are yummy.
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