Guess what!?

I got the pay increase I wanted :) Woot! Thanks God! Good lookin out I didn't think I was going to get it. I brought a back pack instead of a purse so I could pack my desk faster. But i guess i didn't need it. I've never made this much :) I feel really good about myself right now. And this is without an Associates. I think I'm going take a few classes this semester. If I can get this much without an Associates I could probably make that plus $10 more per hour with one. And a BA? Ha no. I don't think I'll ever get that far. maybe. idk. I want a baby. :)

In other news........

MY MOM IS CRAZY! No. seriously.. she is a hypocrite and double standards are the basis of our relationship. All the things I have been saying for years don't affect her. But that's not that annoying part.. i mean its annoying but now she has been telling me those things. "You're mean" and "i keep coming back" and all that... really? she is so desparate to be right she has to use my issues with her and turn them around on me. She takes me proving her wrong as "tearing her down". Since when is the truth an insult?? I said this on my fb...

"Dear Mother, don't bother responding to my email. It shouldn't take a mother that long to write back to her daughter. You probably wont respond to this either because you don't want your friends to see cuz yeah, its pretty crapped up. haha I bet you all thought that was gonna be one of those "post this if you love your mother statuses"

yeah yeah I admit it probably wasn't the coolest thing to post. But it wasn't "mean" like she called it. Fb is there to express myself. and thats all i did. She said i was mean and exposed her. Uhm... no. I expressed myself. Exposing her would be to post the message that followed. And she has NO ROOM to say ANYTHING about exposing me. She used to talk about me to EVERYONE. Church people, friends, MY friends, my younger cousins... everyone. SO if anyone is immature I think we all know who it would be. I don't care anymore. It should NOT take a mother over a week to respond to every email i send. It just shouldn't. And she always uses this "well i was very emotional when i wrote that or said that or did that" whenever she does anything. Like no one else can be emotional and if they are then they need to still take responsiblity for themselves but she doesn't have to. She gets a do over . She expects it. She thinks she is entitled to forgiveness. YEah maybe she is. From God. Not me. She can suck it. I am DONE. I hope you read this. I am done. Take all the fucking time you need to respond... I wont answer.

But screw being mad. I am proud of myself for being assertive in the work place without freaking out or being a push over. I found the perfect balance for once! And it was awesome.