what the heck? so we decided to have our wedding on november 17th. because it was the day we said i love you. and then my mom invites us over and the first thing she says to us is "how about you change you wedding date to december 1st?" what the heck? firstly... what kind of greeting is that? and second, way to put me in an awesome mood for the night. and thirdly... why??? why? because renee is having HER wedding on novmber 17th. and some of the people im inviting are going to hers or whatever. but its not like i knew her date and its also not like it would matter... i mean she picked nov 17th because something about wanting to go on a honeymoon before thanksgiving. well screw that. our reason is way better. its the day we said i love you. you cant get better than that reason. there is no better. jerks. seriously. she has like 200 somehing people going. and i have like 80 people coming. so if i take 20 from her its not going to be as crazy as if she took 20 from me. i think she cna spare the people going to my wedding. AND pastor damion is the officaint for my wedding or going to be. and he is also invited toher wedding. so he is just going to say no??? why do we have to put opur whole entire wedding on hold and change all our plans for renee? who is she? screw renee. this is my wedding too. i dont care if she picked it first. i wanted may and june and july and august and who even knows if november will happen but as of right now its happening and its not going to change for some jerk girl. and she really is a jerk. she is. she's so stuck up and a big fat jerk and i dont even like her she was never nice to me. and if people want to be there for a big fat jerk. they can but i dont care. im keeping my day and thats that. so that put me in a lovely mood. and heather was soo annoying. seriously.. she needs to keep her mouth shut. because shes one of renees friends so obviously she thinks renee should get her way. and everything should go perfectly for herr. but its more annoying to here her talk about it because she has a wedding dress and everything and she isnt even engaged and has only been going out with her bf 2 months. and she's all like "i think i understand how u feel because...blah blah blah" but she doesnt. she can go on and on about her wedding but shes not even engaged. but if even now she wants her wedding on july 26th and if someone else was having on that date and she knew they would all go to that wedding and not hers... she would be pissed off too. people are so stupid. anyways. then another lovely topic came up. somehow we got on the subject of this. my sit diary. and my mom said she cant believe i have a public onlione diary for everyone to see my personal thoughts.a nd i was like so who cares. and she was like "i read stuff in tehre" and wassaying how it was bad and she just kept saying "i dont even want to talk about it" well she was making everyone curious about what it was about by being so stupid about it. its so gay. and finally she shut up about it. and its sooo dumb. its not even a big deal. i wrote an entry like a year and a half ago when i was drunk (first and only time) and i said how i was really horny and wanted to be with tim. who cares? it ddnt like go into detail. if u dont feel like that when ur drunk and with someone you really like, then YOUR the freak.. she made it sound like i posted nudy pictures and said i love clown porn or something. i dnt even know. she's on crack anyways. i hate my hair. if she reads anything maybe she should read that. its nothing how i wanted it. i think this all has something to do with that stupid mirror i broke the other day. 7 years bad luck for me. i stepped on a stupid hand mirror in the living room... now im cursed for life. my hair came out bad but tims hair looks really nice. alll layery and cute. but timmy's are always cute so whatev. im hngry. im a blimp. but im gonna eat anyways.