haven't checked my site's email for a while. i had a few emails about jobs in there. 2/3 were either too far away or my skills didn't match but one looked pretty cool. itsin westlake village. i replied but they sent it earlier this month so they probably already found someone.

laura sent me a message asking me if i could do a site for mike's sister. we never talk. i don't even think she likes me. and then out of nowhere she asks a favor.. kind random. and its kind of annoying cuz she's like "simple stuff"... really? if you consider it so simple... why not do it yourself? she thinks she's some sort of genius. she basically told stephnie that being an honor student meant nothing because she was from a small school. anyways. she probably thinks i would do it for free too because a while ago me and mike were working on a fb app and i was doing it for free. but that was different because i was a part of it and i could earn money based on how well the app did. but we never finished. dunno why. anyways... this is not the same. this is a site FOR someone and how well it does has nothing to do with me. I am not working right now so i am not just going to do this stuff for free. but idk how to tell her that.besides. i have bigger things to deal with.

i want to reinvent my website. but i don't know where to start. i want it to look more professional. and i want to change the way you view my portfolio. that's going to take some time. i don't have time to do freebies. plus i have legit paying jobs coming from autism speaks.

tim is annoying me. he keeps agreeing that we should redo the bathroom but he complains about money and then when i try to save money and say we should do it ourselves.. he complains about that. but when i say fine, we wont redo it.. he says he wants to. wtf. how does that make any sense??? and i don't know why he's all crazy about diy stuff.. he wouldn't be the one doing it. i would. we dont even use that bathroom for anything but the toilet right now anyways.. so why not rip out the shower?? thats why i havent finished painting. i dont want to do it in bits in pieces. and the shower might scratch at the wall or make debri go everywhere and i want to.......................

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timmy came in and said he was sorry while i was writing. i wanted to drive around and look at houses i liked, it cheers me up. i said he could come with me. and afterwards we decided we dont care where it is anymore. we just want a house. at the same time i know it was a long shot anyways but if we move it will be impossible to act.. and altho we'll have everything we want... im afraid. when we visit its ok for the first couple days and then i just want to come home so bad. i dont know if i miss being in my own home and own bed. or california. and i'm pretty sure if we move it will be for good. i'm conflicted :(