oh hello sitD.

I have not updated in a billion years because of exhaustion and just unmotivatedness.

Lots has happened... yet not much at all really.

Tims dad is going to come out and help with renovations.

We're going to try and have a baby this year.

I'm cool with Alisha again. me and my brother can be in the same room.

My mom is still a poopstick.

Colorado is nice.

We've been talking to Sal and Steph again. they got really busy for a while. I love Elijah. He doesn't cry with me :) They said he cries with everyone. I feel special.

Brett sent me an im. he said hi. i said gross. lol. speaking of which... sometimes i wonder about how my life would be if decisions were different. If i were still with brett. and everytime i think.. ew. and then things confirm my disgust. like sal and steph told me how when him and his gf went out there and stayed the night, they would like make messes and not clean up after themselves. and how couple times when brett stayed over there they let him stay in paiges room. but i guess the last time he was there he just walked into the room and put his stuff in there assuming he would stay in there.. but they have 2 babies now... its like how stupid can u be.. hmm would they rather have him sleep on the couch or sleep in the kids room and have to move the kids out while he;s there.. what a douche... Tim is so respectful of people and thoughtful.