hi. well last night was the worst night. talked with andres and oi. I didnt know what to do. i couldnt sdtop crying. i was going to just go to sleep but i couldnt so i called brett... heh good choice huh. not really i felt stupid crying on the phone with him about someone else. and this day is basically the worst day. oi. first, my aunt irene (not the one from missouri, the older one, my grandma's sister) died today. and then i had a conversation with andres and oi. Im going to have an anyrism. or however you spell it. I miss him. well... today i am going to eat right now with brett somewhere. and then we're going to ross cuz i am only temporary so i probably will only be there one more week so I have to take advantage of my 20% discount. and i put some clothes on hold and they only hold them for 1 day. so yeah. gonna get some clothes. and i keep forgeting today is new years. oi. i dont know what my plans are for that. just see what happens. you know, the usual. the lady on tv is getting a wedding dress called the gay sean. well it sounded like that. i thought it was funny. i wonder if that says something about the groom. why am i watching this nonsense? my brother is a moron. and that's all i have to say. my mom just said to my brother "when jeni gets married she's probably gonna wear a tiara" haha i thought that was funny. why are we freaking watching this stupid show? my mom was talking about this lady named ester role and she asked my brother if he knew who she was and she said "she's from that movie good times... you know?... yeah... she's pretty ugly" haha i thought it was funny. oi. i need a hammer so I can smack my face in. im serious.