there's no time in a day to do anything! i hardly ever write in here anymore.. and when i do.. the entries are tiny compared to what i usually write... full of excruciating detail and nonsensical ramblings. it saddens my face. I want to read more. i get a few pages once in a while. 31/38 done. almost. but most of the time i get home.. eat... maybe play some games... but recently its just straight to the couch and I'm out for the count... or night. I like cliches and whatknot. Work is cool and whatknot. had a stupid day today due to stupid people ruining things. i was assigned career mode guitar on easy. i had 5 bugs noted before the first break. but someone jacked up my progression and i had to start over.. so i did that instead of bugging them like i planned to do after break.... so it took me until lunch to get to a decent spot. and i have a few more bugs added to my list... i screen capture a few. and that's how my time was spent between lunch and 2nd break at 3. well during break, some noob comes over and 5 stars 2 of my songs, and 3 stars another. i was in the middle of a very specific bug. and typically its fine... I am cool with that sort of stuff but... its like.. cmon... you see the progression sheet RIGHT in front of the tv... take the hint. its pretty self explanatory. don't mess with peoples career checklists... idiots. and whoever did it is an even bigger jerk because they wouldn't own up to it. Dante was pissed. and i was scared. but it wasn't my fault. but no one admitted to it... and i kept thinking of ways of how it could possibly be my fault. but there's no way. i can't 5 star on medium. only 3's for me. In fact, the 2 5 stared songs.. i played one and failed the first time through... so someone definitely messed. the reason it was so bad is because the bug i was looking out for had to do with unlocking the venues. basically i only earned 9 stars but it showed the "unlock" menu for the next venue. it takes 21 stars to unlock the venue. the venue wasn't unlocked but the screen displayed like it was... when i got 21 stars, the venue unlocked but did not show the screen saying "unlocked"... so it was a little weird. i wanted to see if it happened for all of the venue thingies. but i only needed 6 more stars to get the next venue open and the jerk went and got 13 stars and didn't record. its weird because... one time i left my tape recording during lunch and it someone told me not to. and then now... after this happened all i heard was "was it recording?" and i was like .. "no i stop it at lunch" and they change it to "always record". a little contradicting but its cool... recording at all times seems safer.. i just didn't think there were such stupid people working amongst us. us.. being me. and the world. thus ending my saga with even more bad news...... i got goose egg for bugs today. by the time i went to bug it all... it was all bugged. and the ones that weren't were not put in because the database closed. Ya know i think Dante is only as intimidating as you make him out to be. unfortunately in my case that's a lot. I'd like to change that but I am kinda at a loss of how..... HOW? he always seems busy. or mad. but 1 time i was told i was intimidating (ha) and i hated it. and it annoyed. me. and i wanted to punch that person in the face for getting me so wrong. maybe I am annoying... its been suggested. i like work and all. but i need a break. i think it'll be better with carpool. starting tomorrow... but even with carpool. this week kicked my arse. and its sad because it shouldn't have... it really shouldn't have. i love onion rings. why is it soo late?????? hopefully i will get some sleep tonight. i just fell asleep last night... and i hear my alarm... i wanted to cry. sometimes i wonder why i have this job. its a pretty stressful commute. but... all things considered... i like it.. and its a lot better than having nothing to do all day. i like DOING something with my time. staying out of trouble. and learning. and people. interaction. i feel so antisocial having been deprived of all communication (except for timmy) for so long. i dont know how to act around people who aren't timmy. its awkward. they don't get my jokes. they dont know me. they see mexican girl and think... what the hell is she doing here? not that there aren't other mexican girls or girls in general working there.. i just feel retarded when it comes to conversations in a social setting. and in a personal setting actually. like with tim. but he's my husband and he loves me so its ok to be a moron around him. and we laugh it off and i get another go and make it right. but with new people everything happens so fast and if you screw up its just how it is. and you suck. and whatknot. I'm hoping that will change.. anyways I'm tired but not tired enough. I'm going to read.