i want to be in love again.

I pretend I can be independent, but deep down I know I want someone to hold.

I know I have a tendency to get depressed during the winter, but I didn't expect it to happen this early. Perhaps its the excessive time I've spent laying down, not getting out of the house. To my credit, I had a fucking ovary removed. Think that'll fuck with my hormones much? Hope not, cause they get out of control as it is.

One day I'd like to be over this. I know I have things to do today. Well, should try to do things today. I need to be able to drive to work tomorrow. But, all I want to do is lay in the damn chair and stare at the computer screen. No desire to eat, no desire to talk, no desire for anything.

Sometimes I myself.