Should be writing a paper, I'm not. My leg is bouncing non-stop. My client is up early being a brat. My coffee might have grounds in it. I've seen this music video way too much. I need to do my paper work that I missed last two staff meetings. I have a five page paper to write tonight. I still have to read the book for the five page paper. I have a brochure to write tonight. I have to go to the gym tonight. I wanted to write a good entry, not turning out so well. I read through some entries in another diary I had. I was so much cooler then. I had interesting things to say, original thoughts. I'm not original anymore. I try to make small talk, to myself? In my own fucking diary? This should be a place where I can let my heart free. Not worry about what people will think if I say it. Sometimes I want things to go back to the way they were, I want to return. I'm afraid of what will come. But in a way its exciting. I need to get my creativity back.