I've been unpredictable lately. Yesterday I: woke up crying cause I missed my family freaked out about my house being a mess screamed at him for telling me something I didn't want to hear. All in between I was fine. But these changes in emotion came so suddenly and unpredictably that I couldn't even stop them. There was no control. Things have been, not good lately. It finally hit home how broke I am. Once I pay rent, well, hope I have enough coffee and cigarettes to last me two weeks. I've been slacking worse than ever in school. I'm working at two jobs for the time being. I'm in information overload. And I don't know how to handle it. Even my day off was stressful. One the other hand, I sure do love him. And how he's able to put up with me and still love me through this mess of my life. He even watched Sex and the City with me last night. After we got in a fight.