on nights where i have nothing to do but lay in bed and i have my computer in my lap and i have the internet i hate not being able to spell i hate the backspace button but when i do that i like to think of things that are bad i think of all the bad things about my life i never think of anything good but its only when i have diary infront of me and i'm by myself i don't do it in the store and i don't do it at my house cause i don't have the internet i think i want it in our next house do i want it to be our or do i want it to be mine i don't know it scares me ccause i don't know it makes me want to cry a lot but i don't have tears my contacts have a chunk missing it hurts my eye so i probably need to cry and i have a cause or a meaning to cry i miss you i hate being away cause i think of all the bad things but its good to be away for sometimes i feel bad cause i don't want you to be lonely my fingers aren't typing what i want them to type they are going off on their own its really kind of funny to watch pause let me fingers rest i need to take my contacts out my eyes are hurting i really wish you would hav remembered my glasses FUCK i hope that you feel better i don't like it when you're sick pause again do i have more to say i was hoping htis would make my feel better but i'm just really frustrated cause i have to hit the backspace button a lot so maybe that should mean i'm done i want to be a ballerina and dance in the nutcracker before i die if i had a lot of money i would spend it all in urban outfitters mommy bought me a pretty dress today wasn't that nice of her i don't really know much else about anything..................love.