I should update more often. I think I'm worried about what people will think about what I write. This is my fucking diary isn't it? I shouldn't be afraid that people might think badly of me. Its also that I'm nervous someone might get it and read it. Someone being someone I want to hide something from. This whole life thing throws me off sometimes. Most of the time I just want to jump of the train. Maybe one day things will work out for me.