i wish things could go my way. just once. i wish i would know that he'll call. i wish i wouldn't wait around. i wish i didn't have to wonder. i wish i didn't want to cry so much. i wish i could say all this to his face and he would care. ------- sometimes i just wish things were like they used to be. when we couldn't go a night without calling each other. when we would text as often as we could. is this what being in love is like? we don't get as excited for each other anymore? i thought i was in love before, i felt like i did in the first few months of this current relationship. but it turned out to just be lust. .. this is different. i always thought a relationship was about always being together and having to have each other. but it seems like we don't always have to have each other. i would like it if i could, but i get along when i don't see him. it sucks ass, but i get along. but some nights it would be nice to at least have a phone call. even if i don't get to see him i like to hear his voice. it seems so much more personal than texting. somehow. maybe i just like the reassurance of his voice. speaking of his voice ....... . . phone call ......