i have four days off, i'm happy. that's a lot of time to think about stuff. i'm so tired right now. m. i just want to close my eyes. i haven't written in days, many days. i don't know what to say. everytime i thought it was over it turns out it wasn't. should i be, am i being too kind? i sort of understand what it's like to need time alone, recharge and all that. being around people i don't know makes me a little uncomfortable, smaller groups are more of my thing, and though i may appear to share a lot i actually don't give out a lot of information. what am i saying. i don't know. so tiried.