back again, once more..what to do oh what to do? well, ignoring doesnt work, i cant seem to bring myself to do so... friends sounds nice. mmm but then again, hope is at stake, desperation will follow...so whats the point? why should i bother? hmm?? nah, exactly. it'll be difficult, but oh well..right? i dont want to never ever..i dont care, i just dont want to. id rather die before i do something stupid like that... no. i will not settle. ha! whats the point, we're just going to reproduce. sure ill be lonely, but i can get the attention ill aquire... i refuse, i refuse to be a wife. no. i will not get married...nooope. i will not have kids...noope. i will not comitt..why should i? fuck your ideals, fuck your traditions. they're obviously not for me; dont enforce it, no use, point, need to do so. just leave. everymorning i get up at 6:30am i wake my partner, help him get ready for work. the baby calls, and i rush to his room and hush him back to sleep. he refuses so i run to the kitchen and make him some formula. as i feed him the bottle, i wake my kids up, and help them get ready for school. i then cook breakfast for everyone, excluding myself(lack of time) i pack my kid's lunches and my husband leaves again without saying bye. i then put a coat over my rob and put a cap on(since i havent had time to shower) and run to the van. i run back inside the house and grab a blanket and the baby. i place the baby in his seat and drive the kids to school. as im driving i smell the stench of puke, and look down...ooh look at that..a nice gift from baby. one goes to elementary and the other goes to middleschool. i drive back home and clean baby. i then clean the kitchen, the restroom, the living room, and the dog. i lay and sleep for a few minutes, baby needs formula. kids come home, they go wathc the tele in the living room. i stay in the kitchen and work on making dinner. baby needs to be cleaned, and his formula. messes everywhere, lysol needed. baby needs formula. husband calls, gonna be late. on the brightside he called, but then again he's prolly gettin it with the assistant..so young she is..stupid. husband comes home, 11:06pm. doesnt eat, goes straight to bed. i clean the kitchen, the living room, everywhere needed. i then go to bed.. cant sleep again. NEVER EVER