Well I am having a really bad day today. I am not feeling well, and all i wanted to do was talk after school. Maybe for only half an hour, or somthing. Am i stupid to miss him? Is it too early to care so much? Alot of things are bothering me, and all i want to do is talk to someone, but i can't talk to my dad, my brother is to busy, and my grandmother is just crazy. I can't tell any friends, because its just not fair to some people. I just want someone to talk to for once in my life. Not a website page with private entries. I need someone who understands. So many things are bothering me, most people know some parts of it. I mean who couldn't, its easy to see. And if you spend anytime around me, you will know i am a complete idiot and i am always asking if what i am doing is right or wrong. I always feel like i am doing somthing wrong, that its all my fault. I dunno maybe thats just how i am, or maybe thats just how it is. I get worried about everything, and i just need a break, just some time to myself, but with people that are really close to me. I am looking forward to this weekend, and i hope John can do somthing. I need more sleep, and more drugs...don't worry, not any of the the 'drugs' drugs. Just somthing like advil or nightquill. jeeze i just need one day where i can forget it all, or just get it all out. just one day, even half an hour. maybe even 10 friggin minutes! :'(