ooooo i hate colton...... i broke today, i just spazed out at him but fuck him, who cares. on a much lighter note, and my emo side. I am pissed off at the world, not sad, not depressed(well maybe just a little), i am pissed off because it gave me such shitty cards. My life sucks. the things i can fix, go shitty on my all the time. the things i can't well fuck that. the worst thing about it all i have to do it alone. yeah i have my brother, and my dad. but i don't have someone i can go to that will hold me, and make me feel alright. I don't have someone who will be there for me all the time. do i sound a little past my years with the holding crap? o well. and everyday i face a day knowing that it is going to be double the work to find someone. the someone i find has to be a great person you kno? and sometimes guys don't like to look past how a girl looks, and see who she really is. I am not good looking at all. I know it. But no guy can see me for who i really am. and that makes me depressed.