I am almost scared really, my unhappy past is starting to make a re-apperance. not anything to do with the family and shit, just to do with people. Well i think it is about time for another history of Lindsey lesson! Wellllll...i wasn't always a cold hearted bitch, people made me that way, tony made me that way. I liked him, ya story of the year eh? girl likes guy, guy doesn't like girl, girl moves on? nope not me! This guy man, he was bad, really bad, i mean i really liked him. And well me being sort of a shy person, couldn't tell him. my friends asked him if he wanted to dance with me at school dances and he said no, and then, i made a move for it, i tried to ask him to grade 8 grad. Which didn't work, it wasn't just a no, it was a no, then they asked why, and he was like "beacuse i don't want to fucking go with her." that hurt, then again at the grad dance, i was sad because i had no one to dance with, and my friends started asking him to dance with me, and he ran around the room, and they kept asking, and he was like "NO FUCKING WAY" right in front of the table i sat at. it broke my heart, i almost cried. If it wasn't for my friend alvin that came to my rescue, then i might have been very sad that night. Well he moved in grade 10, i never had to see him again...untill yesterday me and my brother went to the hobby shop to get paints and waiting for the bus there is this guy, who looks like him, exactly like him. and what made it worse, it looked like he had saw me before too. I got so scared. He got on the bus, and i everything just went away in my head. All that i could remember was that night. I don't know if it was him or not, but it just made me feel more alone then i had ever been before, more depressed than i had ever been before. thats what i am feeling now. and it hurts, it almost seems like everyone is pairing up, i want someone, i have never had anyone, but i want someone. Someone real that i can devote myself to. ...........someone.....