weird dream last night... about a hospital (you know how i feel about industrial white... *shudders*) and getting nightmares from a shady movie... about being pregnant and having to save a bunch of kids with my two closest coworkers, a tall blond guy with glasses and a short tough girl with black hair, but not just a bunch of kids but a mini-society there in the hospital... in any case there was more at stake than lives, some kind of important results and my baby and first they started suffocating, who knows why, and then it flooded and there was blood everywhere, and the three of us were trapped in tubes along the sides and i was just slamming the walls of the tubes and crying, trying to get out but nothing was happening, and the blond guy falling into darkness and me just missing his hand to save him like i had been missing all night, or day, whatever it was (industrial fluorescent lights, you know), the dark-haired girl being stabbed in a fight... and then i woke up with foreboding sun streaming onto my face (still in the dream), that dark dream-sun that makes you know it's the only color in the dream and everything outside is in shades of gray, and it was... i was running up the street with puffy eyes trying to convince myself it had been a dream and then i saw a kid on a red tricycle, it was red even though the dream was in gray, and i knew it had to have really happened because i saw his eyes, and i saw myself not reaching far enough to save the blond man... and i started running and crying and mrs gardinier across the street was just standing there with a hose, watching me... so i went to the next block over and everybody was outside on tricycles, all laughing but with darkness in their eyes, but i got so angry with them for laughing after what had just happened and they didn't have any idea... so i started yelling and then this fat hairy guy came over trying to calm me down... and i ran, i ran all the way around the block to escape them and their laughing with dark eyes... and then shane and nany in color on the couch, and ashley telling me it would all be ok...