For no reason whatsoever I woke up in the WORST mood. I'm so irritated and crabby. But I don't know WHY! It could be because my ex James has been UP MY FUCKING ASS since he got a phone. Now he's texting me about fucking me? I HAVE A FUCKING BOYFRIEND. Jesus. I mean. I would've given him the world 10 years ago. Now I don't trust him. I can't believe anything he says. I just. Want to cry .. basically. I can't handle all of the shit in my life. Seriously, I can't anymore. I can't deal with not having a job, and no one calling back. I can't deal with stupid boys liking me when they know I have a boyfriend. I can't deal with the shit that torments my mind on a daily basis. I hate how some of my friends .. aren't really friends at all. I hate how I'm the piece of shit in my family. I hate this feeling. I FUCKING HATE IT. I want to go take a shower, and just sit there and cry. But I can't. Because I'm watching Logan. ... And kaylah just called .. and i hung up on a 2 yr old. I'm a piece of shit.