and most of that's been lies... it isn't fair. he should be mine. but life isn't fair, and i'm willing to accept that fact. he should be mine. but he never will be. i think i might accept that too. but maybe... maybe not. either way, it isn't my choice. i'm just a pawn. but then again... aren't we all? blah... today's been pretty lazy. went to church, went to some other church's picnic, went to wal-mart, came home and read a book. got on the computer. *sigh* i have no life. it's been a really long two weeks. but you know what... with all that's happened... i'm still not sure if i wish it would go faster or not... or maybe i'm just babbling. i'm not even making sense. so whatever. random quote of the day: Don't it always seem to go that you don't know what you've got till it's gone....... Kyr