yeah, my musings have come back. only mildly, and possibly just out of old habit... but they're back all the same. kind of makes life interesting... is it really that big of a deal to date someone? i mean... yeah, in middle school we were totally obsessed with someone, went out with them for a week, and a month later we were calling them idiots. but now that we're actually beginning to understand the concept... is it really that complicated? i mean, i can see it from both sides... thinking, okay there's someone i can't have and i'd give anything to be able to hold them, dating them would be a dream come true. but you know what, i don't have to feel that way. maybe i used to. but the emotions are there, on both sides, so what's the big deal? it's not like all of a sudden the whole world flips upside down. it's just.... geez... i dunno... and yet... if i had a dollar for every time someone asked me if we're dating... heck, i'd be rich. he's just being dramatic. making it a bigger deal than it is. big baby. he's starting to frustrate me. ............yet... of course... i'm still here. why? i don't know. maybe it's just by habit that i still feel this way. who knows...... maybe it's fate putting its two cents in, letting me know i just have to keep hanging on and let all the rough spots smooth themselves out. or maybe i'm just stupid. who knows. later daze... random quote of the day: Make it grow. Cora