so, it's been awhile.... waddup? camp has come and gone... it was totally crazywickedawesome..... or, as carissa would say..... awesomesupercoolrad haha. lots of new friends, lots of old friends, and a ton of Jesus. heck yes. so... i don't really like this thing much.... and i've definitely been sucked into myspace....... so.... umm.... yeah. it's been a totally drama-free summer so far, and that totally rocks. it's just been fun. which is awesome. on the downside, all my best friends are leaving me this fall.... but on the bright side, i get all summer with them and by the time they're gone, i'll be able to drive, so i can go see them! yay! and i predict frequent trips to indy in the future...... i miss everyone from CATC way too much not to go. umm... not really much else to talk about. but i'm gonna put the lyrics to a new song up here, cuz it's totally my current fave song. it's by a friend of mine, his name's Nathanael Hency, and he's awesome, so go to myspace and look him up. anyway... here it is. Already There *** Welcome home Step out of the rain And into my arms Your hair still looks great Sit on down Kick of your boots All calloused and worn They summarize you. You stare at the floor You won't find the words If you shut taht door You'll never be heard You can't buy the sun To shine your way home You can't hail the wind To carry you on So just call my name We'll make it I swear We'll build you a home Cause you're already there You're already there Sing me a song A song of the war. And battles we've lost That's what songs are for. Play me a tune Something of yours And I'll sing along Or hum through the words You stare at the floor You won't find the words If you shut that door You'll never be heard. And you can't buy the sun To shine your way home You can't hail the wind To carry you on So just call my name We'll make it I swear We'll build you a home But you're already there... And you can't buy the sun To shine your way home You can't hail the wind To carry you on So just call my name We'll make it I swear We'll build you a home But you're already there... You're already there. yeah, so, it's an awesome song. well, i'm gonna head out. later daze! ...i almost miss you.... almost.... Sabe

so, it's been awhile.... waddup? camp has come and gone... it was totally crazywickedawesome..... or, as carissa would say..... awesomesupercoolrad haha. lots of new friends, lots of old friends, and a ton of Jesus. heck yes. so... i don't really like this thing much.... and i've definitely been sucked into myspace....... so.... umm.... yeah. it's been a totally drama-free summer so far, and that totally rocks. it's just been fun. which is awesome. on the downside, all my best friends are leaving me this fall.... but on the bright side, i get all summer with them and by the time they're gone, i'll be able to drive, so i can go see them! yay! and i predict frequent trips to indy in the future...... i miss everyone from CATC way too much not to go. umm... not really much else to talk about. but i'm gonna put the lyrics to a new song up here, cuz it's totally my current fave song. it's by a friend of mine, his name's Nathanael Hency, and he's awesome, so go to myspace and look him up. anyway... here it is. Already There *** Welcome home Step out of the rain And into my arms Your hair still looks great Sit on down Kick of your boots All calloused and worn They summarize you. You stare at the floor You won't find the words If you shut taht door You'll never be heard You can't buy the sun To shine your way home You can't hail the wind To carry you on So just call my name We'll make it I swear We'll build you a home Cause you're already there You're already there Sing me a song A song of the war. And battles we've lost That's what songs are for. Play me a tune Something of yours And I'll sing along Or hum through the words You stare at the floor You won't find the words If you shut that door You'll never be heard. And you can't buy the sun To shine your way home You can't hail the wind To carry you on So just call my name We'll make it I swear We'll build you a home But you're already there... And you can't buy the sun To shine your way home You can't hail the wind To carry you on So just call my name We'll make it I swear We'll build you a home But you're already there... You're already there. yeah, so, it's an awesome song. well, i'm gonna head out. later daze! ...i almost miss you.... almost.... Sabe

woohoo, this thing got fixed. um..... went to maryland for my cousin's baptism, shopped till i literally dropped haha... camp is in less than a week! YEAH! umm... i don't really like this thing much anymore. love myspace tho... now that i've finally been sucked into that juggernaut fad... haha. oh well. umm... tomorrow is toooooosday which means 5 dollar ticket and freek popcorn at the movies.... yay! gotta figure out what i'm gonna go see. just stopped in to say hey and i'm still a spychotic loser! haha. later daze! Sabe

hey, so, um, i went back and read my entries from a year ago, when school was just getting out.... wow. talk about a three-sixty. i vividly remember coming home from school on the last day, and all the guys were in the pool and i layed down on the wet patio carpet and said, "man, it's been a long year." and that year had definitely sucked. this year... it was cool. it was fun. i feel like everyone in my class finally became best friends w/ everyone. and there was hardly any drama all year. sure, there was a bit... but life would be boring without it, lol. but, really, reading all those old entries just proves to me that this diary is a perfect record of my life, and of me at my worst. because this is where all the excess emotion flows so that i'm able to function as a normal person. (wait... i'll never be normal lol) but hey, it's cool. so.... um... that's all i really have to say for today. two days of school left and i'm excited, but i'm not sure if i'm quite ready to go yet. but hey, time drags when we want out and flies when all we wanna do is hold on. so.... carpe diem, i guess. later daze, all.... random quote of the day: Et tu, Brute? Sabe

so... umm... the other night i had a dream about one of my friends, and then woke up realizing i hadn't hung out with everyone in like, three weeks. i mean, i've seen..... two people since spring break. kinda sucks. everyone's just so busy w/ end of the year crap... i miss them all! lol... and tomorrow's their last day of school... and then they're leaving me all by myself for forever!!!! *sniff sniff* but yesterday, a bunch of seniors went on a field trip to USI and i guess on the bus ride all the guys called me... and i didn't have my phone w/ me cuz i was in skool... so they left me 18 voicemails... so last night i spent like, 20 minutes listening to them and laughing my head off... they sang me songs... lol. it's cool... because last year the same thing happened w/ all my senior friends and now we don't hang out, but this year, everyone really stepped up to the plate trying to make me feel better. i'm glad a lot of them are going to vu... but i'm losing a lot of them too... *sniff sniff* there's gonna be a lot of road trips goin on next schoolyear.... lol. well... on the bright side of everything.... i only have four days of school left!!!!! and camp is in 25 days, 17 hours, 45 minutes! yeah! man, this is gonna be an awesome summer. i wish everyone could go to IYC, but that's okay, it's still gonna be fun and i can have a huge b-day party when i get home. man, the sky is freaking awesome today. i should call devon, and we can watch the clouds go by together.... even tho he'll be looking at different clouds. but when the sun sets, we'll be looking at the same stars. yeah! well... i'm gonna go now cuz i have a spanish final to study for... two days down, one day to go.... i think i'm doin okay so far, hopefully i keep my A... i'm on the edge of it, so i'll keep my fingers crossed. lol. well..... bye everyone! random quote of the day: "The life of every man is a diary in which he means to write one story, and writes another; and his humblest hour is when he compares the volume as it is with what he vowed to make it." --James M. Barrie Sabe

so... uh... day two...... not a walk in the park, but not as bad as i thought it would be. woke up pretty achy (sp?) and have been all day, but i spent a 9 hour vigil on the G-cube.... man, gotta love mario... and i must say.... living on homemade chicken noodle soup and chocolate-banana milkshakes isn't all that bad.... haha. it's so funny.... so far i've lost six pounds because i've hardly been able to eat a thing... but my face is so swollen it looks like i've gained ten... lol... and i've got this icepack wrap thingy that goes around my head that makes me look like a picture of some kid w/ the mumps. it's really funny-looking. tomorrow's mother's day... and mom has no clue what she wants to do... i guess we'll figure it out tomorrow lol. today was waggs's b-day party... and eryk got him welcome to diverse city by tobymac... because i told him to... and... he wrapped it in a wal-mart sack and duct tape. how awesomely hick-ish is that. *yawn* i'm really tired... so i'm gonna take more drugs and go to bed... and.... yeah... i'm quite delerious right now, and i'm not even sure if my typing makes sense. umm... i'm hungry.... but i can't eat.... *sigh* well, um, goodnight.... sleep tight... don't let the bed bugs bite... random quote of the day: "Dad.... my jaw hurts..." --Phillip "YOUR jaw hurts?!" ---me The kid w/ the swollen face

hi.... so, um, this morning i got up at 4:30 to go to indianapolis... and i got all my wisdom teeth taken out. it wasn't too bad, but i almost got sick from swallowing too much blood, but i'm not bleeding anymore... and it's 6:30 and i haven't eaten yet... but i'll be okay... it was kinda funny when i woke up, because the entire bottom half of my face was numb and i was kinda loopy. it hasn't hurt at all yet, but that's cuz i'm on motrin...... and i have all the feeling back in my face except my chin and lower lip, and i'm gettin pretty annoyed because it's been 9 hours and the guy said i should only be numb for 6....... i bet if i went to sleep i'd wake up and it'd be a little better at least, but i've been a chatter box ever since i woke up.... as usual... lol and despite having not eaten, i have like, a ton of energy. i watch LOTR tho... so now i think i'm gonna go dig out my old piano book and see if i can still play the songs... which i probably can't... but oh well. i haven't played iris in months either..... but.... i can't really say it's my fave song anymore, so it doesn't really matter. it still makes the top 10 tho..... holy crepe i just realized i still haven't bought Let Love In... maybe i can talk eryk into getting it for me tomorrow afternoon... yeah... *sigh* at least he's been nice to me today, but that's only because i told him if he made fun of me, then when he got HIS wisdom teeth taken out, i'd give him hell. but he's being nice, so i won't. *laughs* i remember jacob had just gotten his taken out when he went w/ eryk and i to see I, Robot on my 14th b-day. well... um... i'm gonna go get some more motrin. yay, drugs. lol. bye, all....... random quote of the day: When it rains, it pours. Merenwen Luthien Nénharma

hey, so, um... haven't posted in awhile. guess it took me awhile to catch up with my life, lol. i'm still not quite caught up, but i don't think i ever will be, so that doesn't really matter.... let's see... i can't think of anything important happening before last thursday, which is when i went w/ the sensations to chicago....... that night we saw 'Wicked' and it was so freaking amazing!!!!!!!! like, i had the soundtrack so i kinda knew the storyline... but it just blew me away. and it wasn't just a play, either, it actually would make a pretty good movie, like, it was a cool story. the book absolutely sucks though, and is nothing like the play, so i advise everyone to not read it. umm... we performed on friday, and we got a 1st in our division and a superior rating... though i don't know how many groups were in our division.... oh well... the sensations still remain undefeated in any competition (which is 2 for 2... lol, how lame) which is cool, since it's a brand new group. umm... saturday, we went to six flags. and it was really fun. it was kinda cold tho...... overall i'd have to say the best coaster was superman, because it was huge and it was smooth... but the others were awesome too. umm..... the most hilarious part of the day was that i lost my earring to the lake beneath the batman ride (those of you who aren't die-hard relient k fans have no clue what i'm talking about) and only one crappy thing happened... and i didn't really care... some guy called me from a restricted number and called me a bitch and hung up. but hey, didn't recognize the voice, have no one to pin it to.... and i don't really care who hates me. so, it ended up being an awesome trip... since then, nothing exciting has really happened... but i have a HUGE spanish final in a week and it's (if i remember correctly) 230 questions long....... *sigh* i'm slightly worried. oh well. umm... the other exciting thing.... which isn't exactly exciting for me, but it is for everyone trying out for show choir... mrs. H posted who made sensations and sound konnection after school. i guess i'll go look at the list in the morning, even tho i already know almost everyone that made SK and sensations doesn't matter cuz i won't know half the names anyway cuz they'll all be freshman... so... yeah... umm... that' pretty much all that's worth talking about. now i have to get ready for some reception thing that we got invited to because my jenius (yeah, i know) brother got the lily.... and i have to dress up, and i don't want to... i want to go take a nap. oh well. umm... yeah... i'm outta here... random quote of the day: "Hey, I am very self absorbed and deeply... shallow." --Fiyero Fae

so, um, hi! .....today was a half day... and in english, my teacher, who's 25 and tries to be the cool, fun teacher but usually ends up being a pain in the butt, decided that we were going to write from someone else's perspective. so we all got randomly handed a person's name and had to write about them from their perspective without them knowing we had them. if that makes sense. so then we read them out loud and everyone tried to guess who they had. and... kristin had me... and it was really funny... and i just tried to explain why it was funny, then decided it wasn't going so well and erased it all. you'll just have to take my word for it that it was flipping hilarious. lol. sorry. anyway..... got out of school early................... and............... went to the dentist. *sigh* i despise the dentist. i guess it could be worse tho.... cuz i didn't have any problems, but still.... i hate having my teeth cleaned. and the lady poked my cheek w/ her pointy tools..... so, um... i'm totally excited because kelly is FINALLY gone off american idol. yippety skippety. what else can i talk about... i burned the rent and wicked soundtracks today. um.....my hair is severely falling down right now.... umm. i don't really have anything to talk about. okay... yeah, i got nothing. sorry, man. so... i'm gonna go...... yeah... later! Tink

i'm thinking that just this once, i'm going to try and not ramble in this entry. i don't know why. i just feel like trying. so, here goes. the all girl's show choir is going to chicago in may to compete, and they have a couple of girls that can't go, so mrs. hendrix asked me to step in and learn the songs/dances really quick and go with them. i'm super excited. it's only day one, and i already know 2 1/2 dances. which is kind of relieving, because i only have two weeks to learn them. *sigh* so far so good. let's see if i can keep this up. earlier i was waiting for a bunch of songs to download, and i dragged the cursor around the edge of the screen, and i noticed something. the cursor will disappear behind the bottom and right edges, but not behind the top and left edges. it's one of those things i've always known, but never recognized. i wonder why they make that happen. well, i've made it two paragraphs without rambling. and, while i may seem somewhat normal, i've decided that it's very boring, and i'm not near as much fun as when i'm animated and all over the place. so...... change was okay this time, i guess, but i'd rather stick to the unending dot-dot-dots and blah blah blahs. Have you ever had someone cut a hole in you so deep that it never heals? you can stitch it up and close the surface all you want, but no matter what you try, it will never totally heal? well, that's not at all how i feel. no. i feel... you know how people will say they're in between paychecks, or inbetween jobs? well, i guess you could say i'm in between emotions. i'm done feeling the last one, but i'm not quite feeling the next one. now there's a wierd analysis for you. well, thank you to those of you who have insanely busy schedules, yet still find a way to have way too much free time to spend pretending that you care about what's going on in some total stranger's life. (i call this line of thinking optimistic pessimism. i don't think i like it much, lol) um. i'm gonna go. random quote of the day: "Who's to say if I've been changed for the better? But, because I knew you, I have been changed for good." --Song from 'Wicked', which i'm going to see in chicago. yeah! Sabe

yeah... i'm really getting sick of not being able to talk, but it's really killing me that i haven't been able to sing for three days. No. Me. Gusta. and it's only 9....... but i'm exhausted. which is wierd, cuz i haven't done a thing today. but apart from that... what's happening.... hmm... my brain has totally gone on overload the past couple of days, i've pretty much been smacked in the face by inspiration about ten times over. so i've got a lot of awesome stuff in my head (well, i think it's awesome anyway lol) and i've yet to write down a word of it. lol. sunday i was at chris's house for her surprise b-day party... and alex was there w/ jess. and man, i know she's got him whipped as it is... but i never thought i'd be the cause of one of her bouts.... oh man, it was bad. like... okay, i guess i gotta explain the whole thing. i called seat check and got up, then alex sat in my spot, and jess said it's okay, just make him get up. and i jokingly i said no, i'm afraid he'll beat me up, and hey, he probably would, he's been beating up on me since he kicked me in the head when i was four lol. but jess was all, oh don't worry, he won't hit a girl. so i'm like, well, then i must not be a girl. and it kinda went like that for a couple seconds, and then later jess totally flipped out on him, with me standing right there, telling him that he gave me a bad impression and made me think i'd hit a girl and all this crap... and i told her it was okay, i'm used to it, and she's all, well it's not about that if it's what i think it is... and man, i couldn't stand there and listen to her, i just walked outside and stood there until she was done. and i apologized to alex later cuz i really feel like it was my fault and he said it wasn't and.... oh man, i just feel bad. i've been friends w/ alex since before i can remember. grr. but yeah. i need to stop talking about it now, cuz it really bugs me. so... umm... i'm getting really tired. and i have a few things to write. so.. i think i'm gonna go. so.. yeah... later daze, i guess... You say that you love him You belong to him heart and soul Then why is he so lonely? Telling me he's had it with it all Too much for him to handle love Yelling & fighting over just the little things I know it's not your fault But you better sacrifice, before i have to close Someone else will Someone else will love him like you don't She'll do whatcha couldn't bring yourself to do So i'm telling you to sacrifice Or someone else will He told me that you were The first one to take him to church You helped turn him around But that just aint good enough If you're the one who truly loves Sometimes i find myself, thinking you're not good enough You better get it right, and forget your selfish ways Or someone else will. Someone else will Someone else will love him like you don't She'll do whatcha couldn't bring yourself to do So i'm telling you to sacrifice Or someone else will Oooh, someone else will. Sometimes i find myself Thinking you're not good enough You better get it right And forget your selfish ways I think you're not good enough So someone else will random quote of the day: " It is wonderful how much you can conceal between the touch of the handle and the opening of the door if your heart is in it." --James M. Barrie Sabe

so, um, jeff and justin ended up not coming to twila's on thursday. i was slightly disappointed. but i got over it, so it's okiedokie. umm... friday night was AWESOME we had this giant pile of little sticks in the backyard and we burned it all and it was pretty big when we lit it... like, the flames were about 20 foot high, and since it was mostly little stuff, it all burned fast and hot. and we were standing pretty close until the wind kicked up and blew the flames thirty feet sideways... and then we figured we should back up because the wind was blowing in every direction.... not the hugest fire we've ever had, but still, big enough to be a white man's fire. (hee hee. red man build small fire, sit close. white man build BIG fire, sit far away.) umm... yesterday was okay, mom and i went shopping and didn't fight. and then we went to grandma's for a party and i got 20 bucks woo! i love holidays lol. well, this morning i got up @ 6 and went to sunrise service and then had breakfast @ church like every other year... and, like every other year, me, eryk, and alex were first in line. (it's been that way since i was like, 5, i swear lol) and regular church starts in an hour and a half... and i have to change clothes and look all pretty for that... unfortunately... but that's okay i guess, since i only have to wear them for a little while. and then a bunch of peeps are coming over for lunch. yum. i'm thinking about re-doing my layout... even tho i LOVE blue... if i redo it, it's gonna be inspired by tinkerbell. oh yeah. i might just make a new diary, but if i do i'll put the link on here. i got a myspace... finally... but i don't think i'm gonna use it... dunno. OH! i totally got an idea yesterday.... for those of you that don't know... my room is lime green, pink, and purple (the things that go on in the minds of 6th grade girls... lol) and i've been rearranging in there a lot... well, the back wall is really empty-looking... and i was struck by the notion to paint the words "Welcome to Neverland" in silver/purple/pink curvy letters. and then on the other walls, in really big letters, write words like "dream" and "inspire" and "imagine" and other happy thoughts like that. and when i thought of it, it reminded me of in Finding Neverland where J.M. Barrie and his wife walk into their seperate bedrooms, and when she opens her door, you just see the room beyond. but when Barrie opens his door, you see a glimpse of bright light and green... as if he were really stepping into neverland. *sigh* i'm sorry, this time i've really gone off and rambled a LOT. so i'm gonna go now. i gotta get ready for church. umm.... later daze everyone, and happy birthday a day early to chris! random quote of the day: "Dreams do come true, if we only wish hard enough. You can have anything in life if you will sacrifice everything else for it." Tink

so... umm... what all's gone on the past few days... umm... roy has resumed his stalk-ative manner... i shaved my legs (woo! go me!).... umm... got on my mom's good side again fashionwise... umm... made my mom cut my hair last night. and my hair, for those of you that don't know me, was massively long. but i got 4 inches off in the back and the front tapers off so there's six inches off in the front and i almost cried when i saw it on the floor... but my hair's still pretty long and it looks good, so i'm happy. but... i'm not a mermaid anymore... (inside joke) umm... what else have i done... can't remember. but um, tonight i'm going to twila's and we're watching The Passion of The Christ and i'm excited because jeff's coming and... well... those of you that know him get the picture. umm... you know... i don't feel like rambling anymore and i promised leah i'd call her this afternoon so i'm gonna go do that and put on shorts and a tank and open my windows and play my piano. so... umm... now that you guys know my full itinerary... lol... later daze... random quote of the day: "Man walks the land and sails the seas. Why not soar through the skies?" --Capt. Jas. Hook Sabe

okay, dude... last night totally rocked... my youth group was in this trivia night fundraiser for the red cross.... and my team was bonnie, meagan, and chad... and it was hilarious and we sucked really bad because everything was from like, the 60's and none of us knew anything about the 60's so... umm.... yeah......... and there were two guys sitting at another table that stared at us the entire time and then this morning bonnie texted me saying they were in the pew right behind her in church and it was really funny...... so now we know who they are. umm... oh yeah, after the trivia thing me, bonnie, meagan, and nikki went and ate at denny's and devon showed up so i got to see him for the first time since CAMP last year so that was exciting... and then he and trent came over and played DDR until midnight.... so yesterday was just about amazing. umm.... and then today has really sucked... huge-normous fight w/ my mom... i'm so sick of attempting to care about what i look like. my mom is so high-maintenance sometimes... and we're currently not talking to each other, and i've never done that w/ my mom. umm... yeah. i'm excited about this week tho, it's supposed to get into the 70's allll weeeeeeek loooooong. and on thursday we're watching The Passion at Twila's. yay! umm... that's about it........ yeah... i'm out. random quote of the day: And since you know you cannot see yourself, so well as by reflection, I, your glass, will modestly discover to yourself, that of yourself which you yet know not of. ---William Shakespeare Sabe

umm... wazzup homies? lol. umm... i haven't played my keyboard in over two weeks. i love playing..... but there are times when it become an enigma to me, and i can't touch it, and if i were to play anyway, then my fingers wouldn't be able to fly over the keys the way they normally do. *sigh* so... umm... got in a fight w/ my mom this morning. over nothing. she just started yelling at me and i was like, okay, dude, i didn't do anything.... umm... *giggles* i found out today that seth's mom applied for triva's job at dad's office, since triva's leaving... and i didn't know what to think, so i just laughed. hmm.... you know, i kinda feel like cooking... but i don't really have time to, i only have an hour... and i really feel like baking something awesome... *laughs* my fridge and cubpoard is practically empty right now anyway and i wouldn't have half the stuff i need. seems like fate is against me today..... which is okay. fate can do whatever the hell it wants. i think i might go call devon... or even better, leah... she's finally ungrounded, but we still haven't been talking much... got out of the habit i guess. but we're both excited about iyc and camp and everything... and i have to come up with a replacement for her b-day present cuz her bracelet broke... and how it broke this time, i have no idea... oh well. umm... i don't really think i have anything else to say... well, of course that's a lie because i ALWAYS have something to say... but... umm..... yeah... i think i'm off a day, but i'm too lazy to count it all and make sure... so... 67 days, 15 hours, 9 minutes until camp starts. yippee. umm... i'm gonna put song lyrics on here, cuz i heard this song today, and it's one of my favs... so... here we go... btw... random quote of the day: "Do they really make fuzzy condoms?" --Lexi Myers (don't ask...) Change Your Mind-- Sister Hazel Hey, Hey Did you ever think There might be another way To just feel better, Just feel better about today Oh no- If you never want to have To turn and go away You might feel better, Might feel better if you stay Yeah yeah I bet you haven't heard A word I've said Yeah yeah If you've had enough Of all your tryin' Just give up The state of mind you're in: If you want to be somebody else, If you're tired of fighting battles with yourself If you want to be somebody else Change your mind... Hey hey- Have you ever danced in the rain Or thanked the sun Just for shining- just for shining Or the sea? Oh no- take it all in The world's a show And yeah, you look much better, Look much better when you glow Yeah yeah I hope you heard Every word I've said Yeah yeah If you've had enough Of all your tryin' Just give up The state of mind you're in: If you want to be somebody else, If you're tired of fighting battles with yourself If you want to be somebody else Change your mind... Hey hey- what ya say We both go and seize the day 'cause what's your hurry what's your hurry anyway Yeah yeah I hope you've heard every word I've said Yeah yeah If you've had enough Of all your tryin' Just give up The state of mind you're in: If you want to be somebody else, If you're tired of losing battles with yourself If you want to be somebody else Change your mind... may your swords stay sharp... Sabe

ya know, i just had an entry... and it wasn't very long, just a bunch of rambling crap... and then typed something into my google toolbar and it erased everything... not a big deal... but i don't feel like putting it all back. so... all i'm gonna say is 69 days, 15 hours, 15 minutes until camp.... (yes, the countdown has begun. woo!) and..... later daze... random quote of the day: "And never erring in the shaking hand, the sword rules itself as if it were a living spirit." --Friedrich von Schiller Sabe

ERYK GOT THE LILY SCHOLARSHIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE HAS A FULL RIDE TO ROSE HULMAN!!!!!!!!!!!! MY MOM GETS A NEW CAR NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND I MIGHT GET A CAR SOMETIME BEFORE I LEAVE HIGHSCHOOL!!!!!!!!!! WWWWWWWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sabe

so, um, the title was the first thing i heard eryk say when i got on this thing... umm... so, today was the day mom has been saying for five days that we would go shopping. so... uh... it's 7 p.m. .....guess what we haven't done. i am NOT a happy camper. i mean, i know she's busy... and taxes need done, but come on, she didn't do anything yesterday, it all just sat on the table, so she just had to pick the one day she promised to spend w/ me to do it. and it really ticks me off. i mean, i even got up early this morning so i could get ready to go. i come downstairs, she says we'll go this afternoon. i reminded her at one, and she tells me to go away cuz she's busy. she's probably gonna want to go tomorrow now, and i can't cuz i have youth, and then she'll get mad and be all "well, you said you wanted to go, so i was just trying to make you happy..." blah blah blah even tho she knows to never make plans on thursday. ......i need to quit complaining. but come on... i've got a right to be mad. i just wanted to have fun with my mom. God knows those words are rare around here. *sigh* whatever. i'm gonna go read a book or some other endlessly boring thing that i've already done ten times this week...... Sabe

so... uh... this spring break is turning out to be one of the most boring weeks of my life. this is definitely the most crappiest spring break i can remember having. it snowed, for crying out loud. i've been stuck in my house doing nothing for two weeks. i totally miss drama club, and i'm almost starting to miss schoo. (yeah, i know, big googley-eyed shocker there..) and i am a drama queen. what else is new? hmm. i think the snow is actually melting a little bit faster than it's falling... which is a good thing. and tomorrow's supposed to almost hit 50. man... i guess the good thing about indiana weather is, if you don't like it, go ahead and stick around because it's bound to change within the week. hmm... i need to go to wal-mart. and i think i'm going shopping w/ mom tomorrow. yay fun. actually, after nearly 16 years of being dragged around mall after mall after mall, i'm kind of starting to actually like shopping. yeah... hmm. two and a half months until camp! then three weeks later, choir tour. a week after that, IYC. a couple weeks later, driving part of D.E. somewhere in between all that, vacation in Maryland and CIT w/ leah. and then... back to school, but this time without most of my friends. how depressing. ah well. that's a long way away. got a whole summer ahead of FUN and PARTY and DANCE and LAUGH and SMILE and GOD and a whole bunch of other fun words. possibly a devon mixed in there somewhere for kicks... and if i'm super lucky... seth... but hey, maybe i shouldn't try to push my luck that much lol. *sigh* the snow is now falling faster than it is melting. huzzah. you know what? i don't care. i'm gonna have fun being bored. beat the system. so THERE mr. fate, what do you think of that? hahahahaha..... yeah... i'm pathetic, i know, and i don't care, you losers, so shut up and leave me alone. *wink* Sabe

so, um, tonight's entry is gonna be random.... because.... because i feel like it. school dance yesterday was AWESOME. went crazy... acted like an idiot.... had a ton of fun... got to grind it up w/ all my friends... and then party at my place was the bomb... seth masterson is oh-so-gorgeous... devon acknowledges that i exist. so, um, today i picked up a book my aunt karen gave me for christmas... i figured i'd finish it in 3 or 4 days... which isn't unusual for me, because i read every spare minute i get..... but no.... it took me 4 hours, cover to cover. what a waste of time. but, of course... i get sucked into a storyline and now am required to finish the series or i'll never forgive myself....... have i ever mentioned how much i love ice cream? it's got to be my favorite food... ever... mom and dad are going to be home in less than 3 hours. yay. so, um, this entry was pretty much useless, but that's okay because this is my blog and i can post anything on here i want and there's nothing you can do to stop me! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA! yeah.... random quote of the day: Someday my foes may win... but not today. --Captain Jas. Hook Sabe