okay. i had the right to be angry. i had the right to rant and rave. but i'm done now. florida gave me a long time to think, and i'm anything but angry now. it's just the realization that's left... isn't it funny how inspiration works? it influences emotion, which drives you to act in whatever manner it wants. you're at such an extreme.... and then you get cut off from the source of the emotion, and you're simply left with the knowledge of your and others' actions. and before you know it...... you're at another extreme. and the cycle keeps going... oh, the human mind is so intriguing... *sigh* yeah. now i just gotta tie up all the loose ends. and believe me, there's a lot of them. i just..... it's all really frustrating. and it hurts. but i won't let myself cry over him anymore. so there.