today [ periods 1-4 ] are the last day of full classes.
I cant even believe it.
school is almost over.
monday and tuesday are finals.
wednesday is regents.
the 21st is a regents.
I was talking to cj, nicole and jessica and we cant even believe it.
i'm going to miss them so much, I think out of all the people that signed my yearbook and were like. omg call me.
they're the only ones i'd really call.
they were my good friends this year :]
i looove them guys.
I dont want to be a senior, im going to cry.
when I graduate. im going to cry.
ill miss all my friends, they mean the world to me.
S2 ! S2 ! S2 ! S2 ! S2 ! S2 !
hm.
ohmygawd.
last night, nigel was being cute.
I love him when he's like this.
and it's amazing because his girlfriend has another boyfriend so I doubt that they'd get back together anytime soon.
I know that's what he wants, but maybe for the better of things, they dont get back together.
or maybe just for the sake of me. :]
anyways.
he asked for my number, and I told him a lot of things i've never felt comfortable telling him before.
but last night I felt comfortable.
he's amazing.
he doesnt want me getting all hung up on him when something better comes along.
and I told him that I havent found anything better than him, i think he's the best person i've ever met.
i want to be with him.
but with school ending, nothing would really work out.
but you know, i dont know.
im going to go, not like I have anything better to do.
..
it's a chemical embrace that kicks you in the head
to a pure synthetic sympathy that infuriates you totally
and a quiet lie that makes you wanna scream and shout
S2.